JACKLYN ♥ ORIGIN~

Been for sometimes that ive never face such a tough time. Never know that the words somehow kill my heart for a second. As i almost collapse when i first heard it. I never thought of such a sentence could came from you. For all this while i tought i started to understand you, but obviously thing happend the other way round. Finally i realise that is not easy to really get to know or understand a person. I have to guess and put myself into your shoe for most of the time. I tought by behave in such a way could enhance our relationship. Sacrifies more is not a problem for me, and i didnt ask for any return from you. All i hope was, we can really maintain our relationship by loving each other. However, it comes to this night. I was force to speak out and explain what ive been doing for all these while just for you. But i dont really thinks that you really understand what is the problem between this. You looks so lost and stress out to figure out what am i trying to deliver. Seriously, when...

Feel the gap between us right now. Is getting huge and far as the distant is so hard to be seen. Maybe im too sensitive or maybe we are less likely to have time for each other. However, i just don't feel good at all. Hope that this is gonna end soon. Things would back to normal or even get better. I wish. I totally feel lost and tired. Heart broken, sudd feel so painful. Heart cries like she never wants to stop. Breathless now. I cant control my emotional now. I really wish that he could realise- so that he know what i really wants and he is able do things that i wish. Comfort me, pamper me. I really wish that he wouldnt realise- cause he is so much more tired than me and he might having a bad temper when he knows bout this. Things might get worst as we would quarrel because of this, cause i know he hates when im acting in such way. I guess is another sleepless but tired night for me~

Im tired and im sick! Now im totally sick of being tired. Cause when ever i think of him, i'll withdraw from what im doing. *people named this as day dream, but im just over focus thinking of him. Is been a hard time for me. Cause whenever i miss him, i felt that my tears would fall from my eyes anytime. What was the feeling when you miss someone but you cant even see that person. It causes me to lose all my strenght sometimes. This is the worst feeling ever, i never felt this way before. It suddenly implant on me. Im suffer from missing someone. And this is torturing me!

Feel so awful this whole damn week! My emotional is becoming abnormal again. Feelings getting up and down all the time. But i felt that i become more sentimental for the past 2-3 days. And ya, very sensitive. Maybe is because of "girls bestfriend" came and visit me. Easily get frustrated, down and even depress. Thinking of lots of things and i'm trying hard to find myself a solution. However, it doesn't seems to work. It was just yesterday, going through people's post and looking back on people's past. Somehow i've find out that, some words mean alot to me. And i get influence and distracted by all these words in the post. Lack of security these days. Hoping so much, from him and myself. Really hope that i can have time for myself to really sit down and think. What do i really want. *I've got no idea what am i thinking of now! I believe time can cure me. Or...... Some support, confession or nice talk of "you" would work b...

Hmph.. I'm quite active with my blog these days. Keeping on update my blog, but it is mostly more to emotional posting. * As usual~ Cause what i felt that my blog is a safe place for me to actually release or confess. Well, this time is gonna be something else different. Just feel like posting up things that related to "him". A story of us, and how i get to "steal" his heart from him. =) *blush You know what, being with him is just like a dream for me. ^^ Never know that i could have the chance to be a part of his fabulous life. Well, this is what i've keep on mentioning to him. The story starts here.... Started to get attracted by him since a year ago. Cause i personally think that this guy is talented as he was a K-Pop Cover Dancer. The passion of him towards his interest is so strong. There were once he had told me that, he would dance for his entire life, if he could. These words had a huge changed of my perception on him. Of course, ...

My current feeling is just like the title. Even myself is not able to reach my exact feeling. I only know the reason why, is probably i love him too much. It was hard for him to tell him, how much does his word meant for me. Is hard for me to explain my feeling. I cant even figure it out by myself. I really wish to know what is going on with me. For all the time, i thought loving a person is putting him into my heart. So that he could feel that heartbeat of mine, feel my feeling, feel how painful my heart is. But when it comes to problem, it doesnt seems like what i've thought. He couldnt understand and at the same time im unable to explain. I really dont meant to cause you moody or down. I was so, out of my control. I really wish that i can burried all my emotional, so you are not aware of it. After all, it was my problem for not able to tell you. I apologise. I cant figure out what was the main factor that causes my heart broken. This time is so much painful compa...

Feeling very bad currently. Not able to think on what should I do to proceed. Maybe is my problem for not able to deliver my feelings. I was too relied on the others exactly like the other mangos. Always wanted people to know and understand what was my feeling. It was so wrong, now I finally understand what people trying to mean by silent is gold. I speak too much about myself, too much to be share. I thought it was something good, to be truth to your own by not hiding anything. But yet, I found out there is more to cons than pros. Now that I’ve started the conversation and I don’t even know how am I gonna end this. Putting ourselves on people’s shoes should always be taken at the first place. However, sometimes we can’t fully understand what was the situation that people were facing. We, as human, are unable to measure how bad the situation is, until we really faced it ourselves. I’m exactly a drop of oil in a cup of water now, just can’t be a combination...