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My Choice

I hope that I would have the courage to choose again. Is hard to leave your comfort zone especially when it comes to human relations. But I hope I could walk out from this fantasy and started to look for my happiness. Every woman dreams to get marry to their Mr Right and who doesn't want it, right? Like I said I seriously need a change and move forward to look for my own life. Sometimes is difficult to live without a lime light, you're not exposed but hidden. What's worst when you have to deal with all kinds of rumours and comments. On the other hand dealing with your own jealousy and anger. Just to treat myself fairly, I seriously don't think I deserve all this. Why do I make myself feel like a mistress when I'm not. Why do people can just enjoy being each other lovers, bestfriends, soulmates and I can't? As an ordinary woman who does want to be loved and protected? I didn't ask for any status for all the while not too sure I've done it righ

Cold Night

It was a cold night after all. I am figuring what is the exact problem that I have for all this while. Am I being selfish, too straight forward or I'm simply being stupid? I doesn't really like the feeling when we have an intense argument and later on he is just being sweet and nice, hugging or kissing me. I felt cold at that moment. Sometimes woman is just being weird, and I myself being as an ordinary woman, I feel the same. We can't be treated good. I know if I were to return with a hug or kiss to him, things will just eventually gets better. But I doesn't have the urge to do so, simply because I am being too hard maybe. Let's face the fact that no one could instantly forgive and forget on those harsh words spilling on you, especially when the argument just happend a few hours ago. He made a judgement that I have attitude problems and also saying that he is on my ex-boyfriend shoes now. Eventhough this might be true, I am being ego & self oriented, no

The Man

Marry a man who would share everything with you, his family, his friends, his passion, his stories. Marry a man who is gentleman and treat your fairly where you can still be independent. Marry a man who is ambitious and yet still spare time to spend with you. Marry a man who knows when you're feeling weak or ill and would show concern to you. You don't need a man who is good looking because beauty doesn't last. You don't need a man who is ego and self concentrated because you are capable enough to make your own decision. You don't need a rich man because you have your own capability to make your own money. You don't need a man who does not care about your health because you yourself is more important than anything else. Only love when you are ready not because of the affection you have when you're being with him. He could be the one if only you are able to accept his flaws. Face the fact that no one is perfect. So ask yourself if you are ready to make ch

After million times

Almost a year, I am doing fine & living happily with whatever I have now.  Appreciate everything suround me, the people, the job, my family, my newly own goods. Basically is just everything! Just wanted to say that I have move on and adapted with all these new environment & peoples.  But, good heart still remains.  If someone were to ask me, "you have given a choice to choose again will it still be him?" I tell you what, 4years ago I have chosen him, so as well for today.  Ask me a million times, the answer would still be him.  I remember I tweeted this before, it says "time changes people" no doubt is true.  Mind can be changed, attitude can be changed, belief can be changed... But a love heart ain't gonna change. 

Realisation

Dear Isaac (Yong Cung) It has been more than 7 months after we ended our 27 months of relationship. Whenever I turn around and looked back on what we have done, it were good memories that will never come back. I must have say that, for the past 7 months, I have been dreaming of getting back together with you. I even promised myself to stand at the side, supporting and praying for the best for you. One day you will become successful and come back to me. But I got to face the truth now, even though it is very hard for me at the starting point. Because we all know that the truth is always cruel. You did not give me any hope, it was just me imagining the good ones all these while. I have no one to blame but myself for living in the fantasy of you and me. Now that I realise is time for me to give up. Not because that I am not keen enough nor my love to you is fading. But I know there is no longer space in your heart for me to fit in. Although, I am quite disappointed. What ha

S I X M O N T H S

After six months passes~  Time passes, things changed, you changed and I changed. But my heart will never change~ I'm still standing here waiting for the day. Hoping the best for you.

Who leaves first shall die!

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