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darkness

I feel darkness in my heart. Feel so suffer, and i can't breath So sudden, i felt my heart is totally empty. I don't know who am i? I'm lost, lost to no where. It is so dark in my heart. I can really feel the cold, the emptiness, the dull colour of it. The scene are so clear that i can see now. Pains, Cold, Dark, Hurts, Suffer, & Pressure. Feel so relax, and my weight is so light. Floating in the sky, i have no direction but to follow the wind blow. I love the emptiness in my heart, with no worries, no pressure. I might need love, but not now. I love myself being like this, all alone, far away from the society. How much i hope i can live like this forever. I'm free, free from everything. No locks, No handcuffs,  No rules,  No law,  No blades,  No hurts,  No blood, &  No pain. I might be lost and can't find the way out. At this moment, i feel happiness. I may no need to express, to speech out, to show, to tell what i feel. Because all i have

work to do?

Yeappy.. I have done my Design Fundamentals assignment and already hand in this morning. And my English for Communication's presentation done in this afternoon. Wow! It means all my slide show, speech, out line, design all are DONE ! I grade myself a B+ as a reward. *blink  Woohoo! I'm so glad! Feel so hyper now. ^^ Wanted to hang out with Denise and William  but unfortunately they're busying with their hair show. TT Sob sob sob While i'm so bored sitting at home, Mr Vicent went to his "cousin" 's wedding party. Gotta finish my Design homework now. God bless~

Turn round

Ya, as i mention earlier lot of assignments that need me to finish. And today, i've finish my Design Fundamentals assignment. Thanks to my lovely classmates, they scarifies their time just to help me. (Julia, Mei Yan & Marilyn) Thanks a lot to all of you, i really appreciate it! Btw, i've lost my pen drive yesterday. So unlucky! == All my 1000++ pictures gone & my assignments gone too. Damn stress, some more got people don't understand my feeling. Shit like hell!  Since i'm so unhappy, hang out with Nise & William at night. Chit chatting and fooling around makes me feel better. (overnight at Nise place) Thanks for my best sista Nise and best brother William, you guys really help me a lot! Gotta redo my English for Communication and have to done it before Thursday. I need a lot of time to finish all my work. Need to finish up the out-line and add on some materials. My presentation change it to this Friday. God bless. Oh ya... i'm join

Assignments

Lots of assignments to do now. And i only done one of it, that is English for Communication. Coming Monday will be the presentation day for this subject. Shit i'm so worry that i can't present it well. TT ( God bless!) 22nd, coming Friday i need to pass up my Design Fundamentals assignment. And my assignment is still in progress. And i'm facing lots of troubles now. Vicent and my laptop can't even download the Adobe Illustrator.   I only done drawing one and a half of people and i simply draw it. I cant' hand in this quality of assignment to my lecturer. I don't want to failed my course work! Hope i can finish it on time. Ohh ya... Not forgotten the same Friday i'm going to hang out with my OO family. Can't wait for it. ^^ Good luck to myself!

Gosh!

Not happy on Thursday night. It was so bad that i really feel really depress. Can't believe that i argue with him again just because of a small matter. And sorry to Nise, William,and the chicken king for giving you guys troubles. However, Mr Leong come and talk to me at last. (i swear that this time is not my fault kay?!) Everything become normal back. By the way,gotta talk bout yesterday dinner at Hometown Steamboat before the cold war started. After finish busying at Marilyn's house,Vicent came and fetch me at Metro View. Then we asked William to join us for dinner and not forgotten Denise too. Plan over and over again. At last we make a choice to eat at Hometown Steamboat at Genting Kelang. Denise and Adam aka "Chicken King" wait for us at the restaurant  while me and Vicent went to fetch William at his house. Poor William who had waiting for us an hour. Sorry dear! =P Then, we ordered a tom yam and porridge for normal steamboat, a cheese fondue, an

wedding gown

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Thanks to my sister Denise remind me bout this post. I just remember bout this while i'm reading Denise's blog and listening to her blog song. With the tittle of Wedding Dress. Ya,i admit that i wanted to wear on  the wedding gown so much. I dunno why but this feeling  appears for this few days only. I'm jealous that they can wear on the  beautiful wedding dress. I believe when is my turn to wear on it,i'll be real glad!  I'm choosing this picture because i know that, no matter what kinda wedding gown that i'll wear. I'll still be happy as the girl right in the picture. I'm so jealous! I wanted to wear it so much!

Is your responsibility!

I AM HERE TO TELL YOU THAT I'M NOT GOING TO HELP YOU ANYTHING BOUT YOUR  BRAND NEW ROOM!   I WON'T GIVE ANY COMMENTS AND MENTION BOUT IT! CAUSE IT IS  NONE OF MY BUSINESS!   DO IT YOURSELF AND I DON'T GIVE A DAMN! TQ~

Problems!

I dunno what is going on between you and me. I  really feel that problems still occur. We argue a lot for this whole month. And i can feel that you don't really understand me well. Feel bored with this kinda feeling. I've been keep on repeating the same thing and you still don't understand. We don't date like other peoples do. We don't share and we're lack of communication. Is so hard for you to read my mind and so do i. I tried to give up,but i know this is not what we want. I really hope you can do something about it. Or else we just live like this until one day both of us really can break up. I ran away from you many times. And so was today. But you doing the same thing,the thing that not i want you to do. Seriously.......... I FUCKING HATE YOUR THIS KINDA ATTITUDE! If you want me to change my attitude please change yours first. Don't always mention that i don't care bout your feelings. But you force me to do so. Then who cares bout my feelings?? Is

Past tense

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Ermm... It have been a long time that i didn't update my blog. Well....actually i can't really recall back what happen previously. But there is one thing that i can remember clearly,that is PD trip with my OO family. This 2days 1night trip was fun although we spend most of the time in the bangalow that we rent. Picture! We're enjoying our banana boat~ Besides this,i also remember a few things happen. Thats make me feel so much of stress. It is bout my college life. Really suck! But now,is getting much better after i learn how to give and take. Not forgotten is also to forgive. And so now i'm still OKAY in the class. But i really can mix around with some of my classmates. Enjoy! ^^ By the way,my cousin sister just came back last Sunday from Taiwan. And she bought lots of gifts for me. Love it so much! Thanks,Mandy~ (have to mention her name,to make her feel proud) XD Gotta start and work really hard on my assignments! Gosh~ Two hard assignments at one time,and have