Suffer

At the end, i sacrify myself. 
But i really cant stand all this pain anymore.
How can i really share with??
Im very very tired already! I cant continue this anymore!
Im being so fake and sacarstic! 
I just hate myself being like this!
Why is it always me?! Why am always the one who please everyone?!
Why should have to understand him?
Then who would understand and care about my feeling?
Why am i so dumb?! Why should i sacrify my emotion just to save my relationship? 
Can i just give up? Why always me? Why cant he listen to me and understand my feeling? I really want to shout out loud now! I feel like wanna explode now!!!!
I wanna give up so badly!

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