questions?


Why is LOVE consist of so many QUESTIONS?
I don't know why am i becoming like that.
I have no idea about my negative thinking.
But what i saw is problems still occur when it comes to arguement.
And i don't feel that you feel it.
Letting you go,is not because i don't love you.
Is because i love you so much.
For your own good,i wish that i could be brave...
Be brave to let go my hand.
But i just do not have the heart to.
I need time to think,should we stay or we do have different ways to go.
My heart is so painful when we're arguing.
My tears drop everytime i listen to the truth.
Why is it so cruel?
When i love you more,i hate myself more.
I hate myself for hurting you once and once again.
Why everytime i couldn't tell you the truth that i feel,
but i choose to keep silent.
Yesterday was wrong,i shouldn't let you feel that we're okay.
But i just don't want you to stay awake.
Your eyes are red and you have class on the next morning.
I'm so worry bout you. I don't you to suffer because of me.
Do you know when you kneel infront of me,
that moment i really wanna kill myself.
My heart was broken,and my tears drop.
I'm trying not to hurt you anymore,but i hope you wouldn't do such a silly thing anymore.
Everytime when your suffering,my heart really feel pain.
I know i'm irrational.
And i don't know what was on my mind now.
I'm unwilling to let you go.
But i just hate myself so much when we argue.
And i hate that feeling so much.

But no matter what,there is only one thing that never change....
And it will never change....

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