Sorry for being RUDE!

This is my blog,my diary.

No matter what i post i believe that this is all my P/C.

I don't hope that my post or my words will never bring through somewhere else.

I believe for the people who read my blog they should know.

All these post is all about me and not others.

It is all under our privacy.

Ya,i agree if you say that if is privacy why should it be posted?

Because this is the place that where we let people know about us.

Is that wrong??

 Doesn't matter,blog or Facebook or Friendster or Twitter or what ever,

Is that a must for every word we say have to be recorded and replay once again for correction?

I understand we're in a situation,of taking good care of our reputation.

But this is P/C.

I really hope you can understand.

Sorry for being rude for questioning or informing or what ever.

But this is my blog,you can ignore it.

I'm not sure whether,this post will make an issue or not.

[but that is a fact]

Seriously,i do miss the time we've been together.

And we will miss it after this,

but do we feel happy with all this arguements right now?

I really wish everyone can be happy like what Joe says.

I really wish to~

But now we're like no privacy,even post a single comment or post have to think twice.

Why is this happening??

So weird? Even a conversation between our friends make an issue.

It is same like reading peoples text message without permission.

I bet that all of us really wish to be like a family with all of you,

besides than only the twelve of us.

I still remember how you guys bring me into the audition room,

train me for a zero and now i can do a incomplete split,incomplete dance,incomplete drama.

You know how much i wish to be praise by you,just a single word ''good'' is more than enough for me.

Ya,i might look tough at the outer but not in the inside.

Do you guys know that i feel like hurting myself when i saw Jeffred,Ching Su and others fight for us?

I really don't want to give any trouble to them anymore.

And this is why i keep on mentioning that i don't mind about getting to be Queen or worst come to worst even quit?

Is not i'm giving up myself before you guys give up on me.

Sorry to Kai Loon,i know that i sound so rude talking to you yesterday,

but i hope you can feel what i mean.

I really think about your words,and now i know le.

I know that i need to control or maybe after this i will just follow what ever instruction is.

Sorry for forcing you guys to become like this.

I'm sorry if i hurt anyone of you,i'm really sorry~

But i really hope that we're in one family,is ONE FAMILY!

And not forgotten,i know that although i might not have a chance to win,

but i get the most precious thing that is him.

Thanks to all of you from not taking us out due to the rules and regulation.

[i don't know should i mention it here? but i hope you guys can ignore it! tq]

We've already together,and is impossible for us to act like we're just friends.

Be professional,right? But did you guys see what we have done during trainings?

We didn't stick to each other for all the time or maybe sometimes but most of the times is bacause of drama.

I agree on what ''N'' says,

she says that people wouldn't see the white piece of paper but only the black dots on it.

This is what is happening on both of us.

From the starting,we came in with heart.

Fill up with love and joys that brought from Jeffred,Ching Su,Joe,Shibi,Ben and so many more.

 But there are some black paints painted by you.

At last come out with a heart like a stone. 

I do love you guys!

Our memories are still in my mind,especially the first day of training.

How you guys ask me not to give up,asking me to try my best and teaching me step by step.

I feel the warm,and now the warm is becoming cold.

*How much i wanted to cry while typing this post,but i know it is useless.

Just hope that this few days can past faster!

Then we can just be normal friends without any pressure on us.

I love you all!

I love OO Night!