It was a cold night after all. I am figuring what is the exact problem that I have for all this while. Am I being selfish, too straight forward or I'm simply being stupid? I doesn't really like the feeling when we have an intense argument and later on he is just being sweet and nice, hugging or kissing me. I felt cold at that moment. Sometimes woman is just being weird, and I myself being as an ordinary woman, I feel the same. We can't be treated good. I know if I were to return with a hug or kiss to him, things will just eventually gets better. But I doesn't have the urge to do so, simply because I am being too hard maybe. Let's face the fact that no one could instantly forgive and forget on those harsh words spilling on you, especially when the argument just happend a few hours ago. He made a judgement that I have attitude problems and also saying that he is on my ex-boyfriend shoes now. Eventhough this might be true, I am being ego & self oriented, no ...
Ive told myself a thousand times not to make myself regret. But ive doubt now. Feel regret now of what ive decided earlier. Yet, i still still gain somethin after this case. That is true that i dont need many friends. A few of true friends will do, im already satisfied. Thanks evelynn and dshen for being there for me when i need you guys the most. Even though we are far apart right now but i believe that you guys will still be here with me whenever i need you. People who does not accept advise and cant take my attitude of being straight forward, i wouldnt have make them stay. Is better for them to leave me cause i dont appreaciate people like this. Finally realised how important of my family and bestfriends to me, especially when i away from home. I need them better than anything. I really hope that i could spend my coming birthday with people who i really treasure and appreciate. Cant wait to get back, be where i belong. I just wanna go home. Today should be an ...
If you dont know me by now, you will never never never know me~ All the things, that we've been through, you should understand me like i understand you~ __don't get too excited, i'll come home a lil late night~ Cause we only act like children, when we argue fuss and fight~ __we all got, our own funny moves, i've got mine, woman you've got yours too~ Some part of the lyrics does reflect our relationship. Is been awhile i did not visit my own blog. Thought that i could live happily without worries and anxiety. Who knows,things will never happen like what we've expected. These few days we keep on argue, eventhough it starts from a small matter but it will eventually become serious matter. Well, ive been questioning myself for sometimes. Does it happen because of me? Am i the one who cause all these things to happen? Whats wrong with me?! I totally feel so lost about myself, i dont even know, what do i really want. Something is going wrong with me. However, sometime...