feeling

My current feeling is blank.
I don't know what should say.
But all i hope is people can appreciate what i've done.
You may judge or give comment about my work as a tutor.
But please don't let me know. I beg you!
How am i going to face you in future.
I'm not saying that you're wrong and i understand it is your job.
But what i feel now is hurt. Just a little word really hurt me badly.
I didn't know that my work had not been appreciate and even receive that worst of comments.
By telling everyone in the lecture make me feel really shame of myself and my work.
All i need now is supports. What come through my mind is my family.
I believe they are the one who will never abandon me when ever i need them.
Things become the other way round, i've never thought that you would give me such a reaction.
I control my feeling and i tell myself not to cry in lecture.
When i want to share thing that happen to me and you ask my about other people.
Is my feeling not important until no one cares?
At this moment i'm not sure whether to continue my studies.
I even feel like killing myself.
Not that i don't want to put effort in my work, but i've tried my best.
I did not blame on anyone but myself.
What should i do now?
I keep on asking myself, what i meant for others?
What am i?

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