out of control!

I'm OUT OF CONTROL!
I can't even control my own feelings~
Holly~
I gonna be crazy..
Emotional for these few days~
Easy to be sad,happy,moody and even can simply cry like an idiot.
What the hell?
I doesn't like to be like this!
Is there any ways to overcome this problem?
Do i actually facing to much of stress that cause me become like this?
Feel like wanna cut my hair to release my feeling~
Need MONEY!
`Still haven't get my salary yet,make me feel so broke!
Need to be more INITIATIVE to study myself!
`If i still never study,i believe i will die soon.
Cause heart attack when facing SPM..
Need TIME!
`Time to solve all my problems..
I'm so confuse now,which should i settle first?
Hmph~
Otherwise,I'm going to be crazy!
Need CARING!
`Yesterday can't sleep well,cause my leg injured.
Feel so painful make me can't even sleep.
And when i fall asleep,i dream bout something.
Something that make me feel safe and comfortable.
Like dad and mom protecting me from getting hurt like that~
~Do you feel I'm greedy?
I feel so,but i know is impossible for me to have all this at one time.
So?
Face the reality!
But i know there will always be a friend supporting me.
Thanks~ ^^

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