JACKLYN ♥ ORIGIN~

After cold war for almost a week. After when he thinks that he is sufferin all these while. I take my step forward to admit my fault. But things doesnt seems right. For once ive told myself that i hate myself so much. Even thought of ending my life because i cant stand with all these pressures and problems. Tears falling for my eyes every night, tonight is not exceptional. Is my own fault, by hoping so much from him. Always expecting more than what he could gave me.  Ended up torturing myself. When we are just able to let go our problems and here comes another. He had no time for me but i was hoping he could actually spend time with me. He is much busier than i can thought. My life is so plain and dull as compare to him. I could never blame anyone for not having a fantastic life. But i would thought of having a happier life, filling up by him. I was too naive. I wonder how much he has arrange his time so difficult to find a day for my slot. Am i being a burden for him and stopping him

I've told myself if i had a lil time, I would have a blogpost. And yea, here am I, fulfill what I've promised. Hmph~ Thinking of posting something that was meaningful, touched or memorable. But there is something stopped me, I'm unable to do so. Well, a lil confession again. Being naive and stubborn this time. Did something that is unmoral, against people's privacy. I sincerely apologize but I know it couldn't fix things right. As i always said, things happen and it happens. Saw some pictures of you with you ex in your laptop. At the moment I saw it I felt so empty. Seriously, I don't even know why am I feeling this way. Which is quiet weird, cause usually I'll gone crazy and start questioning you. Maybe the differences about this time, is that I'm alone now. Something very ridiculous, i saw it through your lappy and yet I'm posting up my post through the same lappy. Incident happen in  less than a minute and now I'm feeling cold