Tonight
After keeping all the stress and problems to myself. Today i finally cried infront of him. But things get worst is that he doesnt agree on what is bothering me. Yet, he claimed that im not considerate / understanding (he's asking why cant i be more mature & know how to think). After listening to his words it makes me feel even depress & i cant stop myself from crying. To the extend that i could hardly breath. When he first saw me cry he did ask me gently why am i crying. But he got so annoyed when i repeated a few times "im okay". His reaction seriously makes me feel heartbroken as if he dont really care about my feeling. I keep on asking myself am i wrong? I shouldnt have cry infront of him & makes him got so uneasy. Rather than just feeling helpless, i also felt guilty. Guilty on creating problems to him & causing him mentally discomfort. But still, the problems kept on arousing me. I cant make myself stop thinking. How useless i am to him. How disregard